Gulp! Gawd! I'm Gobsmacked, practically rendered Speechless and as you all know thats really saying something
Roger I am so sorry to hear this awful news, I echo all the sentiments above, you are truly a Fine Ambassador for Dover. You know what they say, everything happens for a reason and although it is very early days yet something more deserving of all your hard work may just be waiting for you, good karma always comes to good people in the end. So spend some much needed time with Jean for now and who knows as PaulB said maybe you can do something with us here on Doverforum.